Most people are quick to tell you about their highs, the peak experiences of their lives.
Not everyone is open to sharing the lows.
Today I want to talk about a personal experience of how I went crashing down from the high of our extraordinary twin home birth story to a low like I’ve never experienced before.
Because I learned more about myself, my priorities and how to live on my own terms more from hitting bottom, then I have from bouncing on the ceiling.
Seven weeks after delivering my twins, I ended up in the ER and had to spend 4 days in the hospital without seeing my kids even once. I was left with a cubic inch hole in my breast, wondering…
How the heck did I end up here?
Here is the story of how I learned to turn tomb-stones into stepping stones.
A few times since the ER experience, I’ve gone off course. But as soon as I realized that I’m not in true alignment with who I am or what matters most to me, I’ve made adjustments.
Sometimes drastic ones. But I’m just not willing to sacrifice myself anymore for any illusion of something more important than loving myself and honoring what I feel.
These moments of contrast lead to incredible clarity. They take me into a process of deeper self-understanding, self-love and forgiveness.
These moments are a chance to wipe the slate clean and build a new foundation. And from that foundation, I can build a life that matches who I’ve now become and is life-giving to me and those I love.
Now, I’d love to hear from you:
- Have you ever felt so off course that you didn’t think you could ever recover?
- What has hitting rock bottom taught you?
I can’t wait to hear your comments!
Thanks so much for sharing such a personal story today, Lana. Glad I caught your Facebook post today. 🙂
I’ve definitely had a rock-bottom period in my life. Over 3 years ago, my mom passed, leaving me as the sole survivor of my immediate family, since I am an only child and my dad had passed years before. I was led during that time to make peace with the rocky relationship I’d had with my mom. Incidentally, I actually blogged more in-depth about that this week.
http://www.francinebrocious.com/journal/2015/12/3/december-stories-number-1-what-my-mother-taught-me
During that time, I grew a lot in many respects, and I also lost a lot of other connections because of that growth. But it helped give me the seed to much of what I feel my life’s purpose is, and looking back now, I couldn’t be more grateful. 🙂
Wishing you and your family all the best! Grateful for the work you do! 🙂
Thank you for sharing your story Francine – what a beautiful journey this life is, full of twists and turns! But one thing is for sure, anything that happens can serve us if we know how to receive the blessings!
So moved by this video, found you on fb. You have a beautiful spirit and you are a strength to many I’m sure.
Thank you Georgia, so glad!
Dear Lana, thank you so much for sharing this. and thank you for the email, that was leading to this Video.
What can i say, to not make it to Long, 3 years ago i was doing a lot of spiritual work, but nothing like that what you do (because yours works :-))and also was working 2 Jobs + doing School on my spare time. I was having a not so easy relationship, we were fighting a lot and nothing seemed to go smoth. so i worked harder (on everything) because i finally wanted it to be right and i finally wanted it to be good, I wanted peace, and freedom and ease, and love, and a(what i concider a working relationship, i wanted a better world, everybody to be happy, …and then, i didnt see it coming, i had a total collaps, a burn-out, I totally lost it, i broke down (mentaly,emotionaly)i ended up in the Hospital, several times, Rock Bottom was reached, i am still having health issues because of that and did not 100% recover yet!! I am praying, and i am telling myself that i will be healthy again. but oh Boy, does this take time !!!
What did i learn? that i totally forgot about myself, that my life was more about others than myself and first of all i think to let go of other peoples Problems, and not to solve them for them. That it is not about making other peoples lives happy when Yourself is not happy. That the most important Thing in Live is Health, and happynes, not Money!!!!! (although it is good to have it 🙂
I resonate with your story and it’s one I’ve heard many times over – that’s why I’m so passionate about speaking out in favor of making ourselves a priority above anyone or anything else, that’s the only way we can truly serve the world. So glad you learned all of these valuable truths and are on a road to an amazing recovery! I promise before you know it, you will feel better than you ever have and feel grateful for hitting bottom so you could bounce back even higher! Sending you all my love!
Thank you very much for your reply !! Thank you!! Since ever then i am really Close to the water, and reading your Response made me almost cry. This is a very hard lesson, but so much good Comes through it, so much that i only have a glance of it yet. I was not sure if i should share my Story, because i am really a little ashamed of it that this happened to me. but now i am so glad i did. Thank you again for your helpful and strenghening words. God bless you!! And greetings from Germany.
thank you so much for sharing this Lana!!!
so powerful and empowering!!!
i totally agree with your massege.
Thanks Mor!!